What the stars don't foretell ...

hiya .. thursday evening is usually very mundane, except of course i finish work early and pray that friday happens in a wink, so i can have the weekend .. this time it was no different. not until i bumped into an old friend (read as - this guy whom i had/have a huge crush on :p) on my way back from work. i think i made a complete fool of myself. totally stupid of me. it was a brilliant chance to smile, say nice things and leave on a good note. but me, no. i have to be my stupid legally-blonde self.was looking like crap also, cos i hadnt bothered to touch up before i left work.*sigh* was really nice to see him though. he's a darling. really made my day. oh, btw, one little bit of useless information - he's a gemini too ... geez!no wonder we click like a house on fire! i think my entire evening went off pretty well thanks to this unexpected rendezvous .. went on to catch dinner with misty ... did some usual shopping - i think i'm going to end up living in my bags/shoes .. just got myself one more handbag! i'm becoming like one of those women in soaps like Satc .. shop till i drop, drown my single-status-sorrows in margeritas and s'times coffee ... sigh!

p.s. why the stars don't foretell .. astrology.com refused to open on my computer at work today .. so, hadnt read my daily dose of what the stars had in store for me .. and as for the certain somebody in question, let me say i had met him at an acquaintance's house and we'd hit it off really well eversince - we love the same kinda music .. and had the same kinda ideas about things in general .. oh what can i say .. *crushed* =)

p.p.s. sheesh i better hit the sac, have this really important assignment due tmr. yikes!

Going gaga over Google.

yes. am living on google.com these days. work is hectic. but life's a little better thanks to google. though it can be a pain s'times when you never find exactly what you wan, but get every other god damned thing. but usually, google is awesome. i love google. period.

p/s: just hope i don't log in first thing tmr mornin' and go into an all @$%@ google mood.hehe. that'd be a plain googly =S

Nice long weekend.

Satisfied. good weekend. met a lot of people =) ate decent meals. didnt do any work. zilch. but had fun. relaxed. slept a lot. had a gala time. yay! tmr will be a new start. new week. back to work. *groan*

Perfect Girlfriend ;-)

Mercurial, definitely. hang out with boyfriend's friends, you bet. cheat on him - almost never ;-) hang out and just be happy with him - sure .. but perfect girlfren just doesnt have her perfect boy fren yet ... hehe ..

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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umm .. justification ..

hehe.. thought i owe it to you .. yeah, have been writing too much serious stuff lately, so some chilled out, quizzing .. for pure entertainment .. most of it is quite true though, but really juz for fun ! .. not yet gone bonkers .. and am in a full fledged update blog mood (10 posts in 24 hours .. whoa!) .. so what better than lovely quizzes to tell you more .. and lighten up the serious spirit i had gotten into .. hehe .. cheers! enjoy!

Quizilla again ~

innocent kiss - you're cute and sweet and like it
that way !
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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My English speaking country .. interesting!

Now, don't I like this quiz thing ..

You Belong in the UK

Blimey! A little proper, a little saucy. You're so witty and charming... No one notices your curry breath

What English Speaking Country Do You Belong In?

What kind of friend am I?

yay! long weekend, and i'm back to doing random online quizzes .. check out this one .. hehe i should admit, one change in answer said i was group gossip material ;) lol! i bet there r ppl out there who agree whole heartedly!

You Are A Social Butterfly

You love your friends so much... You're motto is "the more, the merrier"! Making sure everyone's included is your mission And you always prefer a group of ten to a group of two

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Do you really "get over" a crush?

ah! that question has been going on in my l'il head ever since i saw Ess and Tee together today. much as i feel he has moved on and has his own life, there is this something that makes me wanna believe he has those feelings for her, all over again. or wait a minute, did he really get over her at all in the first place? did he really "move on"? the heart says no. never. smwhere down there he always liked her. and will probably always like her. (a different thing being she never fails to send out all the "right" signals ~ though she claims she is absolutely not interested .. woman, open your eyes, think straight and not of yourself only, for once!) i actually feel bad for him. moreso cos he told her, and things dint work out. and he lives by a false hope shown by these mixed signals she sends out. i am too fond of him as a fren to see him get hurt. but smtimes for the ass he is and for that pathetic him which refuses to get over her, i feel like he deserves it. almost.

almost because, i have been mad about my own secret crushes. i cant give up. i don't get over and move on. i know how it is, everytime to see someone you have loved and lost. my case is slightly different, wldnt say better though, because the other person almost always never got a chance to find out. unless my actions and behaviour gave it out. my face and eyes have this habit of saying everything i don't want to say smtimes! and everytime i see someone whom i once had all those feelings for, i feel the blood rushing. thr's that sense of excitement, hope, disappointment. all at the same time. so, do we really get over someone we love? or smwhere deep down there, do we still love the person we once loved? almost unconditionally? i cant bring myself to hate someone just because they chose not to be with me. i feel bad i judge ppl like Ess, while i am myself one of those ppl who cant get over and move on with life. i live like i'm buried in my past. sigh!

ironically, i met Joe today. finally. he seems to be doing okay. there was this unsaid distance to start with, though later there a lot of the usual sweet nothings going on. again. why does he send me all the "right" signals? if there is something going on, why cant he just come and talk? *well, i'm the gal - i would jump down the building before asking a guy out - strictly believe in the guy asking gal out system of things - a bit the conventional and conservative * leaving me all confused now. does he or does he not? that is the question!

=)

Nice saturday. so far. *touch wood*. yup, confirmed my travel plans for the summer and bought the tickets - its an awesome relief to think about going home. can't wait! nothing unusual is going to happen, will probably be another mundane month of doing nothing, but i can't wait .. yupz ... went along with a couple of frenz. hadlunch followed by a trip this gizmo place .. for a change i had things i was looking out for, so was quite fun. Veekay was a dahling =) he usually ends up bugging the hell outta me, leaving me all "grrrrr" .. today was different, he was really being helpful and nice. *awww choo chweet* .. hehe .. was pretty damn tired of the trip that i slept like a log for an hour or so later .. now i'm having guilt pangs about not doing any of the things i had planned out to do. first off, i ought to write that missive before a get a missile from home ;-) lolz! then yes, work work work. better be gone. l8rzz ..

An apology

Kris, I'm so sorry for all those things i said. i really do care and thats probably why i said them in the first place. just waiting to see you like the guy i first knew, whose smile would light up my face, my world =)

Random bits and pieces!

life's like grains of sand. the more you wanna hold it all together tightly, the faster it slips out of your control. thats kind of how my life is at the moment. but i'm not complaining. not yet. you want everything to fall in place quickly. just like you had imagined it would be. perfect. but nope, reality chooses to be different. s'times you ought to let life choose for you. take you through these roller coaster rides.

think i have finally figured out why i felt so low lately. the depression or i would call the restlessness of it all. turns out i had imagined this to be different. i had looked forward to this time of my life eversince my first day in college. and had drawn out certain rules, a mental state of how things would be. turns out this has been quite different. not quite like what i had expected it to be. i cannot yet say whether this is for good or not, but i would say "different" would be the politically correct thing to say.

i like being control of things, and who doesnt like having life the way you imagine it to be. unless you are of course, sandra bullock in While you were sleeping . remember where she talks of her daddy telling how life's not always the way you plan it to be. and how glad she was that hers wasnt the way she planned it. *yes, im crazy abt the movie, and have watched it like a zillion times over* .. hmmm.. till now, the last 3 months haven quite been the way i had thought it would be. lets hope things will work out good at the end of it all .. if sandra could find her Jack, I am sure i'll find mine *giggles*

met up with some ol' pals tdy, was great fun meeting them fr coffee. catching up with stuff, all the girl talk =) the usual single gal pals stuff .. hehe. misty has been endlessly ranting on about her single status. quite sick of hearing it. i met this other friend of mine, s'time back. she's recently "attached" to this guy i knew. i tell you, they were one couple whom i met and dint feel a thing. not a pinch of jealousy. as in it dint feel one bit miserable being single. infact it felt so good to be independent. so good to not be associated with some weirdo whom your frenz quite dislike .. hmm ... well, i care what other ppl think. so i guess my guy will have to be someone everyone likes =) and me, not in a hurry to get him right now. have too much going on in my life without a boyfriend. yeah, better work out these things. once my life gets less complicated, lets think of finding Mr. Perfect .. my Mr. Perfect .. hehe. now i better stop this blogging spree. here and now. adios!

A wedding date

Yo! I am on a bloggin spree .. yippee .. just watched the wedding date today (oh, for those who thought i actually got a wedding date, sorry no luck just as yet .. hehe!) .. its a total chic flick .. but wow i loved it .. the character played by Dermot Mulroney .. he's called Nic .. i tell you, i fell in love with this Nic guy .. he's just so calm, composed and in-control! wow. and yes, great looks. did i mention, amazing smile =) wow. hehe now i am obsessing. not quite my fault, given how empty my love life is. joe's been sick i hear, though i havent seen him in like a million years now. miss him. to an extent, Nic reminds me of Joe. the scene where Nic brings home a drunken Eddie. that. that was when he really reminded me of Joe. i could kinda connect considering im a complete mess s'times, just like Debra as Kath, though she looked great in the movie. but really, a total feel good movie. the best medicine to the not-so-happening friday night blues!

~ The Mental Makeover ~

atleast, thats what they see. yes, all of a sudden people seem to think, i'm being too positive. too positive, for the pessimist they knew. too optimistic for someone who would never see the silver lining. now, is it them, or have i really changed? i don't remember making any conscious effort. i swear. or is it just being too many negative thinkers, that i've become all perky? or is it just one more of my mood swings? aargh! this is getting complicated. may be its the long weekend. or that i'm finally thinking about heading back home for the summer. but yupz i'm unusually chirpy (really?! i thought i'm always like that =p ) .. well, i hope this "me" stays .. i like emitting positive energy and being vivacious =) .. how about some discipline, determination and confidence? will probably make me the "me" i used to be some 5 years ago .. and yes, how about getting rid of sm 30-40 pounds? wow .. i will be just about perfect then .. great! sounds so do-able .. *yeah right* .. hehe ..

Voila, I'm back!

peepz .. been really long time that i've written anything here, now that i check almost a month - whoa .. but well well, the month has had so much going on .. no wonder i had no time to write =p to start with, the internship, has been okay so far, though the day in-day out does bore me at times, i've tried to be more dilligent than before in the last one month or so, so that i can have some results at the end of the day. well my office is no 5 star luxury place or some hi funda cool techy office, but atleast thanks to that, i don't have to be all formally dressed everyday and they are not so fussy about leave and late coming and other such truances =p overall, work has been okay - there were a few pressured days, but generally, can handle it!

then there was a whooooole lot of activities, starting with a series of episodes caused by Mdm D and her lover boy and went on to become a whole big issue .. the woman managed to drive me mad! i swear! i don't even want to start off on the dirty details, so lets drop that subject. all i can say is, i cant stand her! and now, after the way she and the club has treated me, i don't want to contribute to them anymore. period. my own event is coming along okay, that too had some pressure points but those were things i could sort out then, we're still in the baby stages of it all, hopefully it will culminate well. meanwhile, i've taken up this whole big student volunteering series of activities, has been fun so far .. really wanna do some good work for this! aah, that should be all on the work front ... i think!

on the softer side of things, the last month has been quite a nightmare. i dint see joe for the whole month, almost - 13th Feb till 13th March - whew! can you believe it? i guess i was gone with my activities and he was busy with his work, so obv we had no time for each other.. but not even seeing each other for a whole long month, sheesh! but well, when i did see him, he was such a sweet heart .. *though i think i was total mean pain to him .. the way i replied to some of his questions, so distant and as if i really dint care a crap about him! * .. hmm but at least i dint come accross like my usual super needy pain the neck .. so that was good .. but overall, was really lovely to see him .. wanna see him, see him so much more .. with his work and things, don't quite see that happening, and at this rate i'm scared things will just go out of hand, with both of us drifting farther and farther apart! *sigggghhhhhhzzzzzzzzz* oh how much i love him .. and how much i miss him .. come back to me, love!

on the other hand, everyone else have been quite nice .. misty has been endlessly whining about one thing after another - the latest issue being marriage =p .. i so pity the guy she's gonna get hitched to! hehe .. but sometimes it is fun hanging out with her as well .. like the other weekend, we sat in the coffee shop happily gossipping , was such awesome fun .. my roomie's been nice as well, though she's been busy with all her stuff lately and my being away at work doesnt help things much either .. been in touch with home every other day, so don't quite miss much in that sense .. just the other day, Jay and Subi called .. and i called Dr. S .. was an absolute delite, i swear!

talking of which, there's been sm unpleasant news .. uncle kay is no more, some unexpected complications and that was all .. poor boy vee has to handle all this, he muz be going through hell there .. just wrote him a sorry-for-your-loss note, don't wanna say smth to hurt him even more at such a time .. hmmm...

well well, i guess this has covered the major ups and downs of the month's roller coaster ride .. will write more later, better get back to that thing called "work", what say?