Do you really "get over" a crush?

ah! that question has been going on in my l'il head ever since i saw Ess and Tee together today. much as i feel he has moved on and has his own life, there is this something that makes me wanna believe he has those feelings for her, all over again. or wait a minute, did he really get over her at all in the first place? did he really "move on"? the heart says no. never. smwhere down there he always liked her. and will probably always like her. (a different thing being she never fails to send out all the "right" signals ~ though she claims she is absolutely not interested .. woman, open your eyes, think straight and not of yourself only, for once!) i actually feel bad for him. moreso cos he told her, and things dint work out. and he lives by a false hope shown by these mixed signals she sends out. i am too fond of him as a fren to see him get hurt. but smtimes for the ass he is and for that pathetic him which refuses to get over her, i feel like he deserves it. almost.

almost because, i have been mad about my own secret crushes. i cant give up. i don't get over and move on. i know how it is, everytime to see someone you have loved and lost. my case is slightly different, wldnt say better though, because the other person almost always never got a chance to find out. unless my actions and behaviour gave it out. my face and eyes have this habit of saying everything i don't want to say smtimes! and everytime i see someone whom i once had all those feelings for, i feel the blood rushing. thr's that sense of excitement, hope, disappointment. all at the same time. so, do we really get over someone we love? or smwhere deep down there, do we still love the person we once loved? almost unconditionally? i cant bring myself to hate someone just because they chose not to be with me. i feel bad i judge ppl like Ess, while i am myself one of those ppl who cant get over and move on with life. i live like i'm buried in my past. sigh!

ironically, i met Joe today. finally. he seems to be doing okay. there was this unsaid distance to start with, though later there a lot of the usual sweet nothings going on. again. why does he send me all the "right" signals? if there is something going on, why cant he just come and talk? *well, i'm the gal - i would jump down the building before asking a guy out - strictly believe in the guy asking gal out system of things - a bit the conventional and conservative * leaving me all confused now. does he or does he not? that is the question!