Very very random.
I can't remember the last time I sat down to write an entry on this blog. Possibly for it has been such a long time since I sat down to write down my thoughts. Or may be cos time just seems to be flying and I am losing track of what I'm doing with my days.. So in no particular order, let me start penning down some thoughts...
Work has been busy. Completely taken over my life to be honest. But at the end of the day I quite enjoy being at work, despite the thought of waking up in the morning being a painful painful idea. Sometimes the idea that work has become such a big part of my life taht I hardly have time for anything else scares me. Technically I have no life outside of work. May be bcos I am not really trying to get one. But it is time I think about doing something outside of work. So many thing I want to do - learn some music, learn some new language and lastly, and perhaps most importantly exercise.
They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions. Perfectly apt for my resolutions to exercise and lose weight. Every night I promise myself I'd head off to the gym the next day, but somehow tommorrow never comes for this.. It is high time I get more serious about this and work it out. hmmm.
Social life revolves about ppl from work or friends from school. Just met up a bunch of girls, old pals. good times. although a wee bit annoyed with one self centred someone, but well, time i get mature enough to ignore and move on. the good friend is away for a while now. its been a bit boring without her around but i guess we needed this break badly to rejuvenate a stagnating friendship. the flatmates are alright, only if we brush away the underlying issues beneath the carpet. one small incident and everything feels weird. i guess living together teaches you to deal with this sort of thing.
The home front is preparing to erupt the wedding volcano. next family discussion being that of my wedding plans. At this time, I am clueless about what is happening, or what should happen. All would be perfect if I had fallen for the right guy and he flipped for me too, and we'd be in love and everything would be fine. But that hasn't really happened. And I have to grow out of silly crushes and move on. Time to get serious about this. which means there may be an intervention from the parents and everyone else who thinks they care about me. for what is otherwise called an arranged marriage. I have nothing particularly against such a set up. but given the circumstances, that is not going to so simple. and I dread the thought of being on display and judged by people who probably dont even deserve me. judged for things like my looks or the lack of those. judged for being the independent and free spirited person I am. judged for other random things that are completely out of my control. and possibly be rejeccted for such random reasons. and god knows I hate rejections. I just don't like the idea of say, me agreeing to someone even if it would mean that I'm compromising some ideals while he goes and just bins the thought of marrying me. well, really speaking it would just be his loss. but well, rejections suck. big time. anyway before the whole marriage volcano comes about, i will need to prepare myself for the entire ordeal. how much simpler life would have been had i found someone myself. bah.
In a typically escapist manner I went through a nice and expensive retail therapy session today. bought some nice shoes and bags. all plural, trust me. but it had been a while, so i was just glad to get out and shop.
Plan to stay in tmr, get the mundane weekend tasks done and may be, catch a movie or something. If i'm upto it, that is . Not sure when I will be back to bear my heart, till then take care. adios.
posted by Karizma at 1:18 AM
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