~ Finally ~

Heeeeeyyyyyyyyyyy ... yup its moi back in bloggin action ( read as yay! end of exams .. and lolz.. start of the usual nothing-to-do period) lovin' it totally ... yeah the super dreaded and stressful exam period is finally done and over with. though of cos the results r yet to come out, but then right now im not even thinkin about it ... u bet ;) yeah itz been almost a week now that exams are over .. (hehe and im updating only now :-p .. oops) ... have really been doing nothing .. went out a couple of times earlier this week .. until realisation struck me that i'm blowing away all the $$$ i had saved up thru'out the semester on random coffee shops and unfulfilling dinners ... so after that came the "cocoon" time.. where all i did was sleep - eat - surf the net - go back to sleep - hardly met anyone or did anything fun ... infact am still on that mode right now. except that now have run out of things to surf the net, run outta movies to watch and have had lots , by lots i mean LOTS of sleep .. so now is when i have abs nothing to do ... its officially vacation time, and had it been any other vacation I would be back home with my family now. but this time i took up some part time work thingy, which doesnt really let me go back either .. i was hoping that would keep me rather occupied until this afternoon where my employer tells me all i need to do, for at least the next few weeks if not the entire vacation, will be search stuff on Google.com. sigh. I really want to do this - moreso cos i neeeeed something to put down on my resume.. something that sounds slightly techie and interesting! yeah so for that i'm gonna be whiling away time here in college even during vacation. everyone else seems to be doing fine really - as in busy with their own lives - whatever l'il lives they have ... aaarrrggghhh i will die of boredom if this were to continue ... this gemini needs something to "stimulate" my mind before I am brain dead!!

~ the dreaded exam period ~

anyway moving a l'il back in time ... lets talk of the "good ol' days" of mugging .. yeah exam .. i've always enjoyed that hi - stress study in acad zone period.. okay okay i wont call it enjoy, but have cherished it more than studying alone in my stupid dorm room.. but this time things were so different. I did not in the elast bit have any fun, unlike last term.. every one seemed to be so selfish this time round ... very cut off. all they could think of when i was around was one - to make major fun of me .. or, two - run for their lives ... hmm had i overdone the damsel in distress act ... that they've seen it all.. and i'd done it all ... cant say really. Joe was the weirdest. so didnt expect things to go this way, this time round. as for the real acads itself i think i did work so damn hard this time. had really pushed myself. but at the end of the day i somehow still feel like it wasnt hard enough. more like after each exam i could kick myself. may be i worked too hard before so was all burnt up during the actual exam period itself .. nah couldnt be .. generally i did nt come out feeling a wee-bit confident after any paper .. even for those which i think i knew shit for ... really worried abt how im gonna fare.. esp in a couple of them ... * crossed fingers*

~ The post exam tales of nothing to do - Ennui & boredom takes over ~

well well well, saturday last i thought was the time when i felt on top of the world, thanks to exams ending .. and yay! the next few weeks wud be awesome fun, having nothing much to do, just chill big time.. hang out with frenz etc etc ... satdae nite was great fun ... we went out, watched a great movie - will tell ya more - the incredibles.. have you watched it... awesome awesome movie - then went for dinner at this great New York restaurant .. basically had a gala time ... then sunday was my sleep over day ... just slept slept and slept more until i cdnt keep my eyes shut anymore ... still went out for dinner after that .. gd fun that too ...

after that started the period of "oh just another day".. where i had nothing to wake up for... so all i did was sleep sleep and sleep.. besides watching a couple of things here and there ... and of course eating well. really well. the summer treatments dont quite seem to have taught me any lesson. am still piggin out everytime i see remotely good food. terrible. even went out for ice cream the other day - out of sheer boredom. oh did i mention the cheesecakes. yikes. im so damn guilty. its really boredom and depression a deadly combination of things to make me fat!

but yeah havent done one thing really useful. have had some comm meetings. but bored of that too. frenz as i said are all lost in their own worlds. Joe has had a leg thing .. so cant really move around and stuff. think he's decided to head back home. im so gonna miss that too. though i havent really met up with him either. he's been so damn cut off of late. i think things are kinda over. i.e. if there ever was anything happening, its over. else i take it there was nothing. and all i saw was my feelings for him, and kept interpreting things the way i wanted to see them. sigh! what a pity. this time i thought i wasnt wrong. and there was a chance. but dint quite look like it. sigh. quite heartbroken actually. thats why all the depression and pigging out. sigh again. anyway thats said and done. now i am back to doing nothing basically. hopefully things are gonna change for the better. and hopefully i'll get soem good company for these hols. and my project goes off ok.. and hopefulyl i'll have some fun before my internship starts... oh yeah i forgot that, i got placed for internship at the local telecom company, pretty cool eh .. though i have a feeling i'll be working in some remote place, and on a not-so-fantastic assignment, but lets hope for the best. dunno what im gonna be paid for it either (yn) .. anyway thats a long one for today. gonna stop here... will be seeing you soon for sure (with the amount of free time i have on my hands!!) .. ciaoz!