I think..

.. Few people get into as much trouble as I manage to get into..

Why?

Just why, why does this have to happen? Just when I thought the list was done, and everything was in order, this happens. Totally shakes me up. Not fair, I swear.

Friends / Nostalgia

Isn't it weird how things change with friends? A long lost friend of mine got in touch with me today, and boy, was I happy to hear from her or what! But it's weird how these equations change. Like say, we used to be best of friends at one time, and now all I can tell about her is how we used to be friends. Note the used to be. Although I was so happy she got in touch with me after so many years, there is only so much we could talk about. Only so much we could really open up and share. And of course, only so much we had in common today to chat away to glory like the old times. Add to that the fact that online communication isn't exactly the warmest means of communication. Left me with this bittersweet reality. Brought back lovely memories of good times we spent together. Warm thoughts of so many friends I am no longer in touch with. Bitter reality of how today we're not that close anymore, and perhaps never will be.

There everything seemed familiar, yet everything was so unfamiliar. Here, everything seems so unfamiliar, yet it is all so very familiar. Now, which one do I call home?

Update

The last few days have been rather hectic. Most have been happy. Most have also ended badly. Badly like tears, outbursts and such. I have nt been so moody in a while now. So angry about nothing. So Frustrated even things are seemingly okay. May be seemingly is really the key word. Hmmm...

The birthday was awesome. Except the food ofcourse! But having so many people around and to believe they all remembered just felt good. Thank you guys :)

The shopping has been going on and on and on. Well, these retail sales were invented for idiots like me :D

Miss having the little girl around. Although all we do when we're together is to fight endlessly. May be that's what keeps us going. Some think I'm jealous of her. May be on some levels I am, but mostly if there was one someone I loved so dearly that their pain brought tears to my eyes, it would be her. And I hope she knows that.

The uncertainty has been put to rest for the time being. And celebrations were on. Prayers and crossed fingers for the happiness to last and the peace to prevail ~

Not so sure.

Right now, I'm in a very unsure state of mind. A big uncertainty and doubt that was looming ahead of me has been put to rest. That leaves me comfortably relieved and calls for celebration. But right now, I have so many other things on my mind and I'm hoping they all end up just as well, giving me that chance to celebrate. I pray this happiness isn't shortlived and that elusive moment of celebration comes real soon. I am, to say the least, very very nervous. Prayers, folks! Please, pretty please?

The little girl leaves for the big dream tomorrow, and she'll never know how much I'll miss her! Good luck, my darling angel :)

Stop and wait

Time just whooshes past you when you're with loved ones they say. Ask me. About a week and then I'll miss her so much. Sigh.

A friend plans on taking the marriage plunge soon. like real soon. I'm not going to hear the end of this given that my parents want me to follow suit. Argh.

Everything seems to be moving fast, yet so slow. like the afternoons when I have absolutely nothing to do.

Changing pages of the calendar makes me nostalgic. Sometimes I wish that things slowed down, just a little bit.