Break.

For someone who has so much going in her life right now, Karizma has been blogging way too much! Looks like it's going to be a short break, for a couple of weeks till things are back to normal. Adios.

Cryptic

Well well. everything's so confusing. 7 years and now this. confused.

Weird part is Doctor came up with an interesting proposal. But have put that on hold now. Not sure whether this is good time.

Been spending some fun times with random friends - the guffawing over nothing and mindless jokes takes some stress off my head.

Resigned to fate

And sometimes I'm just happy with whatever I get, and thankful for small pleasures in life :)

Oh well, venting it out on real people helps get over frustrations sometimes. Especially if the people in question are (partly) responsible for the frustration. So, feel a leetle bit better today.

I guess, somethings we just have to live with! So might as well enjoy whatever little part of it we can out of it, aye?

He's still always going to be my adorable friend .. touchwood to that ~ cheers

ps. I know that last line sounds highly cliched, but this is all love seems to teach moi!

pps. And may be, God did believe I could handle it after all, eh?

How can you lose something you never had?

Today I found out something I was only suspecting so far. A smile, a single look gave it all away. And suddenly I felt like a complete fool. Why did I not see this coming? The random phone calls, the birthday presents, the wedding invitations - all the clues were right there, and yet somehow I just didn't see this coming. Why? I feel so heartbroken now. Why does she get everything I want? Just one quick question - Why Her?

Good Life.

The song has been playing in my head for a few weeks now. Thought of shamelessly putting up the lyrics on the blog. It is a lovely song.

Softly now, You owe it to the world

And everyone knows that you're my favourite girl

But there're some things in life that are not meant to be

I'm not meant for you and you're not meant for me

Here's to our problems, And here's to our fights

Here's to our achings, And here's to you having a good life

From me ...Good life

Softer now, You owe it to yourself

And don't think that you will be left on the shelf

Cause there's someone for you and there's someone for me

Like me you'll meet them eventually

Here's to your lover, And here's to my wife

Here's to your children and here's to you having a good life

From me ... Good life

Louder Now, You've lost all your pain

You're married with children and happy again

And now I'm regretting the move that I made

Fatal mistakes are so easily made

Enough of my problems they only cause fights

Forget that I rang you, And promise you'll have such a

Beautifully happy and painlessly romantic

Good life

From me ... Good life

-Francis Dunnery

Perception, I guess

I seem to be on a blogging roll. I guess that has got something to do with the fact that I'm not really talking to too many people these days. Anyways, that wasn't the point.

Point is, suddenly it struck me today, how things that you can adore about someone can change completely if you want them to. like those things you found cute earlier feel so annoying now. that crumpled shirt you loved feels like perfect garbage material. only because this time round, you don't love him so much. or so you think. or so you want to think. hmmmm.

Quotes.

Something that came in my mailbox. Just thought of sharing.

If even a day should go by where I don't say I love you, may never a moment go by without you knowing that I do.

Beautiful, isn't it?

Another something I heard somewhere.

The secret of happines is to make other believe they're a cause of it.

And today's winner, methinks.

Silence is one of the hardest arguments to refute.

Control

Sometimes some people have too much control over what happens in other people's life. Scary thought.

Random realizations

Been spending quite a bit of time hanging out with friends. Generally catching up on what people are upto, and such mundane things. Will write my in-depth analysis of some of those stories on another day. For now, tiz about moi. I realise I really am not very high on the expression quotient. As in, I seldom open up and tell people exactly how I feel about almost anything! No strong reactions to anything, no opinionated arguments, no extreme emtions displayed. Not like I don't have opinions or emotions. I'm just not so high on expressing myself loud and clear for the world to hear. I'm just happier sharing with few close friends, and family as to exactly how I feel. And writing it out on my journal. Where people I don't know read it and judge me. But that doesn't bother me so much.

When I see people happily opening up and sharing to the world as it were about anything and everything that's happening in their lives, I'm quite taken aback. Like talk about it in the cafeteria. With other people. People whom you know. People whom you may not know so well. People who contsantly judge you and use these things against you. That jus makes me a teeny weeny bit uncomfortable. And unknowingly, I'm judging them for it before I know it.

#227 is special ...

.. and so saying, I have completed 227 posts on this blog, my dashboard says. *yay* *karizma takes a bow* .. haha, now that i'm done with the dramatics, the real post..

I have been spending a lot of time outside my cozy comfy room, and that means i'm not plonking myself in front of the computer either. That explains the recent brief hiatus from the blog too, but then i came up with a plan. Everytime I thought about something that I wanted to write about, I made myself a little sms note. So I don't forget whatever it is exactly I felt at that point in time, so I could come back and write about my random thoughts after a tiring day. With the exam season ound the corner, there's hardly anytime for organized well-thought out posts *not as if i'm an expert in writing those!* .. but anyway, here goes today's random thoughts...

Sunday 02 April 21:45 hours

I wish it took just two stiff drinks to get over someone you truly love. I wish these tears would stop. I wish it didn't hurt so much.

Sunday 02 April 23:00 hours

What do you do when someone breaks your heart without even knowing what their doing? What does it feel like to think you're with someone all along, only to realise that they've never really been with you. ever.

Monday 03 April 01:45 hours

I don't admit it to people so easily when I'm down, depressed and upset. But when I do, I look for comfort and solace in my confidants. And it just hurts much more when they don't react. Or react the way I want them to.

So, that's the end for today's pot-pourri of thoughts. Obviously, there wasn't too much accomplished on the study front, with my head completely pre-occupied .. darn.