The last single girl

Been a while here, yes I know.

After a long time yesterday we were out for a girls night out. Tee, Miss Victoria's secret and me. It was lovely catching up over a quietish dinner at an Italian alfresco restaurant - warm bruschetta for starter. Great wood fired pizza followed by Banana milk-ice cream shake for dessert. Divine. Along with the dinner was a lot of conversation, very interesting conversations about nostalgia and of course, the future. As we proceeded to talk about future plans and where we see things going ala Sex and the City, it slowly dawned on me that of us 3, or for that matter of my girl friends' circle, I was probably, no wait, definitely, the only girl still single. The only relationshipless boyfriendless girl, still clutching on to the company of her gal pals to eat fine dinners, and make travel plans. And somehow I don't like what I see. Things need to change, I need to make them change. If only it was easier done than said ..

In other news, work has continued to drive me mad. Suddenly I feel like my dedication and efforts on the job are futile and unrecognised. So I feel like a lost lamb, not knowing what I can do to change the work situation, where to direct all the energy. I spent 3 years working my arse off spending all my active energy to this job! And without feeling as motivated to work on this job, I feel really directionless. You know how they say an idle mind's a devil's workshop. In an attempt to not think about work issues, I surf news channels. And its all depressing news going around. Making me think about things I dont really want to think about. And making me completely miserable. Pull-my-hair -out type miserable. Things really need to sort themselves out (given I cannot seem to be able to do much myself!). Prayers please?