Hypocrisy unlimited

Before you think i'm going to rant off on another somebody who pissed the shit outta me, let me tell you something, no, this isn't going to be that spicy piece of gossip you came looking for. what this is going to be, however is a rant nevertheless, more self reflecting and blah blah. so feel free to click that close button now :)

and if you're reading this still *meaning, wow, i'm flattered, you're actually interested* here's the scoop .. you know i've been thinking about this quite a bit, and i know i'm such a complete hypocrite sometimes. sometimes i hate it when people get all judgemental, but knowingly or unknowingly i judge people all the time. small things they say and do so completely changes my opinion of them. it amazes me sometimes. then other times, i hate it when girls are all so giggly and flirty with guys, and again, knowingly or unknowingly i do it all the time. all the giggling and leetle bit of flirting and of course the 'oh-so-cute's and 'so sweet's.

funnier still, just the other day i was telling someone how lame it would be to be telling strangers pathetic stories of pathetic crushes you've had, or how i don't particularly appreicate people who put their life on display. and surprisingly enough, i do exactly that. i mean, hello, are you even reading this blog? oh-i'm-so-crazy-abt-him, or omg-i-just-had-the-worst-day, or other random personal vents and rants like that. well, i know my blog is supposed to be my own private space and all that, but for the amount i criticize private ranting on public domain, it makes me wanna throw up to think i'm such a hypocrite, really!

no, i'm not in some sort of overly depressed or suicidal states, and this isn't one of those, oh ive just realised how much i hate myself posts. no, i don't hate myself so much! but i was just thinking about these things and i'm amazed, rather shocked to find out these things about myself. makes me wanna judge myself and feel pathetic about who i am sometimes. but you know what, if you really look at it closely enough, you will see how everyone around seems to be just as pathetic as you are, or as you think you are. everyone seems to be just as hypocritical, and sometimes, may be there's no harm in being someone you don't like to be .. may be sometimes, its a gd idea to give yourself a break and not be all uptight and propah. i guess it's just ok to let go and say what you really feel like once im a while, and of course, to keep flipping between the two sides of the coin is really okay, given you're one of the gemini twins - we're born to be capricious and fickle after all ;)

p.s. the best friend isn't doing so well, prayers pls :) (yn)