So silence is golden?

I'm a firm believer who believes I'd rather be quiet and suspected a fool than open my mouth and confirm it. Now despite that, I talk. I talk sooo much, and love chatting away endlessly. But yet there are just some people I completely clam up around, and when we're together silence is golden, really.

Take for instance, the good friend you-know-who. invariably, when he's around I end up being so unbelievably quiet - busy fiddling with my phone, sipping on my drink, pretend to be lost in deep thought. Now I don't know if that's whether to guard myself against saying something that I'll hate myself for saying later or just being the typical coy silly girl or just being scared outta my wits to say something stooopid in front of him. Oh well, I know I'm capable of it, sio why take the risk, aye? But even when we're just being all goofy, I kinda enjoy the quiet when I'm with him - gives me a kind of reassurance of being able to hang out with him even if I run out of things to say, and just drifts me away to a world of sweet nothings. *sigh*

Recently, certain developments have put me in an awkward kinda placing with some good friends and talking to them has become so difficult. For someone who talks as much as I do, the silencs are killing me! To think through the things I blabber and make sure they sound polished enough so they don't sound hurtful - wow, thats a lot of thinking to be talking with friends. I wish things weren't as hard with them, I wish they understood how I felt!