Embarrassed.

eerrmmm. came back to read what i wrote yesterday. i'm a little ashamed of myself, for not holding my horses s'times. yikes. i feel so silly, looking back. i don't hate myself. of course, i don't! *sheepish grin* i logged into blogger determined to delete that post. but now, i think i'll just let it stay, as a reminder of how crazy i can be when i'm so angry. a reminder not to pout out so much self pity / self hatred. dint i despise ppl who are oh-so-self-involved? or who drowned themselves in self pity? what is going on with me?! yeesh. i guess everyone has their highs and lows. that muz have been a crazy low for me to go and write that. hmm. my reactions stun me s'times. too dramatic. too impulsive. scary, eh?