Confessions

I did something horrible last night. horrible. i don't what possessed me to do something like that. all i needed to do was ask. and i knew i wont be refused. i still went ahead and did it. i guess it was my insecurity. knowing i'm not good enough. so i needed something to fall back on. and this was the best time. but oh i feel terrible. worse, if i was ever found out! it will end this beautiful friendship in the worst ending ever. this time everything looked like it was clicking. would have been my first happy ending tale. but me. i have to go it and mess it all up. 3 days more and things would be different. but i have to go and ruin it all. temptations! aarrrggghh. the guilt is killing me. if you ever happen to read this, trust me. i'm so sorry about what i did. it was not meant to hurt you. and will definitely be never used against you. i'm just so sorry. i needed that to fall back on. and was way too embarrassed to ask. was afraid you might turn me down. though deep down may be you, being you, wouldnt. but i still went ahead and did this terribly sneaky thing. forgive me, please. guilty as shit.