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hokay, so what do you do when you have just about one million things to do and have no idea where to start? .. well, i'll tell you .. you come and blog! at least thats what i'm doing .. riite now ... on a more serious note.. hell report not yet done. no where there infact. by right i was supposed to have finished my draft by this time. bull shit. havent quite even gotten beyond the introduction. then everything seems to be happening now. just so fast. my main event .. remember those meetings i used to be off, every week .. yeah, now i'm back at it .. means i'm gonna be doing shit loads of proposal editing, email writing and lots of other such nonsense stuff! aah! tired. then there r a million meetings. i'm just totally in the middle of nowhere right now. too much going on. too little time. too little focus.

aah, yes thats really the problem. my concentration is totally screwed up right now. thinking of too many irrelevant things. like thr was this show thingy tmr. cant rem if i mentioned before. i'm bloody mad at my band manager for not givin me a chance to sing. really really mad. i mean WTF. its not like i suck at it. worse still random other ppl are performing. i guess what hurts me more, is this time misty is in. she aint the typical classical performer. but she's going with a band of her friends. while my own band which i've been loyal to for like 3 friggin years now, royally ditched me. this isnt even the first time this is happening. they just always do this. why still am i loyal to this baskets. i dun understand myself smtimes! dammit. im just furious.

anyway besides that Aze kinda pissed the hell outta me the other day with all his sarcy dripping comments on some write up i'd passed to him. no more door mat treatment. i told him he could fix it if he wants. himself. promptly, i got back a changed font version of the doc i sent him. hullo... gimme a break dude. anyway cdnt care too much about that. have a report to finish by nex week. my boss just tells me they're having an assessment next week @#$%. guess tis a gd thing im free on satday. can get some work done i hope.guilty now. have so much to do. what the hell am i doing blogging. okay, i'm gone bfr i start wallowing myself in self pity.