The doormat logic

Yesterday's dinner was okay - ate good food, shopped a bit (despite warnings from bank accounts and all the astro stuff i read) .. bought that lovely yummy choc cake - simply couldnt resist *blush* .. then watched Ms. Congeniality, for the god-alone-knows-how-many-eth time .. hehe .. that was with Mdm Tee ... when we started off at dinner, she was all cranky and irritable, but things got a bit better later, thankfully. Later in the night a whole bunch of ppl came over to chat up my eva-so-cute-n-pretty roomie =p ... so stayed up talking and chatting about every damn inconsequential thing under the sun, almost all night - obviously meaning woke up crazy late this morning (or was it afternoon ?!) .. hehe .. just now tk my brunch .. (breakfast - lunch ... what did u think=)) ... met Joe finally.. but a bit .. ahem.. quite.. pissed off with him and his silly frenz .. i think i ended up looking ultra needy and my usual pls pls pls tones .. sheesh ! feeling terrible now ... will prob feel tt till i meet him next, god know when thats goin to b! and he gave me his dose of what i hoped he'd never say about how he's in the firm that rejected me .. lets call it XYZ Corp .. he goes all "oh i got work to do cos i'm in XYZ Corp" ... piss off .. i mean not like i dun hv stuff to do and cummon, gimme a break, dont need that kinda treatment! #$%@ .. mighty pissed now thinking about it, but dun wanna let these buggers ruin my weekend for the 2nd time in a row .. now even after seeing him I am in the *bawls**sighz**sobs* state .. shucks!

Now to my doormat logic - yeah, the title mentioned it if you dint see .. basically P and me have this logic about how we both always end up getting treated really shitty, just like doormat - complete push overs .. you know the feeling when you be all nice to ppl and all, they completely use you when they need something and then wash off their hands.. like your were toilet paper or smth! i mean, when you try and be all accommodating and all that, then you make one request and that becomes a big deal .. like small thing - a couple of days back i was out with a friend - she wanted to eat dessert while i wanted my coffee .. i sat with her thruout the time she enjoyed every lick of that dessert, and when it cm to my coffee she begged that i just pack it and have it back in the room .. i mean hullo, WTF?! this is just one silly sample.. but know what its always like that, with every god damned issue ... and know what my problem is .. i think i'm just a bit too nice sometimes, ought to be mean to ppl who're just so mean out there ... same goes fr Joe and his frenz.. they'd die beg and do what not when they need smth, and when i need smth, even after begging/pleading i dont get it ... i mean i HAVE gone all the way out to help some of these ppl, and they just dun recognize it .. sigh .. i hope things change man .. i cant tk this being treated like shit all the time by all .. sigh .. really pissed at the moment ... hope things will somehow change .. pray pray pray ..