~ Happy New Year 2005 ~

Wishing everyone a very Happy New Year 2005, along with a thought for the victims of the Tsunami that struck Asia and killed many many thousands of people all over Asia on the 26th of December. May their lives resume normalcy and be blessed with joys they always had =)

as for me .. spent new year's with a different bunch of frenz, ppl i did my high school with .. Mdm Tee had decided to ditch me and leave with new found love, who also happens to be the high school crush she wudnt stop raving about ... i'm happy for her in a way, but it feels bad to see her neglect ol' frenz just cos of one guy who's after all nt even going to be thr, say this time next week. and for all i know, he's just playing it cool with her, a fling for the winter break, and Mdm Tee is all swept off her feet by him ... sigh!

that whole story puts me on a reality check on myself, as to what will happen of me when she manages to find a boy friend for real, where do i go then? hopefully things will work out for Joe and me and we'll be together soon =) i really cant wait for that to happen. though he's been really outta touch for sometime now, and he doesnt seem to be bothered about it ... my usual woes of it all being a figment of my own imagination, thinking up things the way i want to see it ... sighz...

despite that, new year's this time wasnt a let down - without joe, Mdm Tee away, i still managed to have a gd time with my high school frenz and we really were just hanging out and having fun - spent time at the city side countdown and then by the river .. the supper or very early morning snack time was gd fun also =) today , being new year's day, i slept mosta the day owing to the tiredness after all the walking around yday , then went to pray - a bit dissatisfied bcos of the crowd, but telling myself at least i tried. may be if i can i'd go again tmr, lets see.

nex week its end of hols, and bac to work and by work, i mean my internship. kinda nervous about it actually, wonder how its goin to be like. hopefully all will go off well :) *pray*

amidst all this, did i miss out the Tsunami tragedy. it is THE MOST DEPRESSING incident i have heard of in a long time. luckily nothing affected me or my country, we were just saved by the indonesian archipelago .. but its stunning how when i first heard that some 6000 ppl had died i thought THAT was terrible, then i hear now the toll is almost as high as 150,000 - simply appaling. I am still in a state of shock. its just too overwhelming to see women weeping out loud, the whole areas flooded, areas which i knew once, beaches i have been to all flooded and washed away and worse still, being so helpless and tied down and knowing there could one more of those that could completely destroy this entire island, and that it could be coming .. anytime NOW! there's fear, despair and helplessness. to me i feel just a little comforted looking at the kind of aid being given to the ppl by countries world over. I am really touched by the efforts of ppl here - individuals have been contributing in cash and kind, indeed vey generous. the ppl whom i'm in awe of mostly are a couple whom i know as my local guardians, they've actually started a whole new drive to collect and ship clothes and cash to srilanka and india and have been working really hard at it. i'm really touched. all i could do, or rather all i did on my part was to help them out one of the 4 days now that they've been doing this. still feel like i have a long way to go as a human being - to think i'm even whining about Mdm Tee or my new year or Joe .. very self centred s'times! pity!