The weepy one.

I had expected today to be so fantastic, and look what happened. I guess my theory of never expecting anything has come back with a slap on my face. yeah. its just amazing how much control someone else can have in making or breaking your day. not just day, making or breaking what feels like your life. and that simply is not fair. especially when the person doesn't even realise what they're doing. bleah.

in other news someone has been getting to me so much these days. ever waking minute of my life this person is trying their best to step in my life and bug the shit out of me. little doubt that its annoying me so much that the said person might just get strangled by me one of these days. she wants everything i have and more. that just gets my goat dammit. all my friends, all my interests, everything. and no, imitation isn't flattery when its this kind of in-your-face imitation or whatever it is. the endless quest for attention people get into and the ego trips. all of this makes me wanna throw up. the whole pseudo i have a life attitude. the false friendships. all for wrong reasons. aaaarrrrgggggh.

sometimes i truly believe absence makes the heart grow fonder. more so i believe mere presence can make you wanna kill some people. staying with someone can make you dislike someone. more than you ever thought. having to see that person all the time not only irritates you for no good reason but also makes you find fault with everything they do. and that's not so good when said person is probably the only other human being you talk to these days. gah. my life's getting messier than i'd imagined it to be. groan. i dont like this. need a break. need to get out. and how that totally isn't working out is making me sick. really.

ok my rant for the day is done. phew. feels better letting this steam out. aaah. gimme a break someone!