Guilty as charged.

Ok. this is one more rambly and boring post, please feel to exit now.

So I pride myself on remembering dates. Dates like birthdays, anniversaries, special somethings and many first somethings. Crazy as it may sound, I actually feel an awesome sense of satisfaction when I remember to call a friend first on his/her birthday. Coz I know it sucks when loved ones forget your birthday. It's in a very skewed way, almost as if they forgot you. I know, that sounds a bit extreme, but thats just how I feel about it. Anyway so this time the date expert in me screwed up. Karizma forgot. Forgot you, my dear blog. And I feel terrible about it! I hate making excuses as to why I forgot, so shall steer clear of that path.

Was just a lazy saturday routine when I was browsing through some previous posts, when it suddenly struck me how I forgot my connection with this space for two long years. Yes my friends, it has been two long years of enduring all the bullshit I manage to scribble down here! And I couldn't believe I didn't come back to blog on that very day that I had restarted writing, when I started this journal. At the same time, I'm filled with surprise and a sense of satisfaction that I've actually managed to continue to write, however crappy my writing has been. I'm not the kind of person who manages to keep any new found enthusiasm about anything sustained for longer than say about 6 weeks or so. To think, this blog has survived a fairly active update routine for two full years makes me happy :)

Of course there have been the times when I've felt like I never wanted to come back and share. Times when I thought this would be too time consuming to be writing journal entries. Times when I felt insecure about being found out. Times when the point of anonymity got to me. Times when I didn't like it that no one read my blog. Times when I wasn't sure I wanted anyone to read how I felt about anything at all. Times when I got just crazier than normal. But somehow after a point none of it mattered. The crazy voice in my head would just pop up and say, hey, its blog time again! And after all, this is my little crappy place :)

Here's to more posts, more blogging and good times ahead. A very belated, but very happy birthday dear!