Moods

Generally depressed as i write this. I don't even know the exact reason why. lately have been in this weird phase of my life. have never been this distracted. ever. have neevr felt so out of sync with everything that is going on around me. ever. have never been so dazed and lost. ever. have never felt so not in control of my life. ever. have never felt this much in love. ever. what is the matter with me?

just last night i was all smiles, all happy, excited and really chirpy. so much that my smile was quite the talk of the town. and just look at me today. i look dead. i look like someone did something terrible to me. i am just totally dazed. and upset for no particular reason. it's probably the nothingness and void that surrounds me. but i'm in this unusually crestfallen state of mind. cant get anything done. just terribly upset. over nothing. i hate this. i don't like my life like this. pls, i need to be happy. again. pls.