Some more Cheese ~ Bring it on!

this one's after an overdose of cheese... but hell yeah, the coffee bean cheese cake is irresistable! and then the mocha ... heavenly.. simply divine combo .. hehe.. made my terrible day slightly better...

yes, guess what i was rejected by my internship company .. yes, Rejected. Sucks right?! now its going to be a looong wait till i find another internship, and who knows it might nt even be half as good. so disappointing and heart-breaking. to think i have no one to share or no one's around to support me sucked big time. everyone else, almost made it. hurts!

later on, a couple of frenz stuck up with me though. Aze was a darling. so was kevs. may be the rest really dont know how to react, or how i'd take it if they react. i think i'm taking it alright. initially was a bit heartbroken and crestfallen. but daddy's words of advice and mama's support saw me thru all that. now feeling better, not good really. but i guess i have to start living with some of these facts. and yes, the world out there IS crazy competitive and tough. there are ppl way better than me, and certainly ppl far luckier. its a matter of priorities, decisions and definitely, no regrets. i wanna believe i tried sincerely. too bad things didnt work out. hopefully will get a fair deal at the end of this traumatic time. the fact that most others made it actually makes me feel real lousy. Joe made it. i hope he doesnt act like one helluva cocky bassket now. Aze was really supportive. sweet. besides that it felt like i had no more frenz. may be not their fault really. but still hurts to have no shoulder to cry upon. Tee was a pain in the ass. wudnt stop talking about her project and oh how worried she was, hullo, you're talking to soemone who's had like the worst day ever. anyway thats her, as usual. my so called friend. wanted to talk to pretty pinkie dahling, but she must be busy with her tests and prepping for that. miss her.

P/s - call it retail therapy. call it going berserk. but just blew up money on hi-carb creme coffee and cheese cake. now goin to be complaining abt the adipose additions. you know where the problem starts, don't you? what is really the matter with me!?!