CruShEd. ToTaLLy.

Yes its raining again ... and along with it, the rain brings back my blues of last night ... yeah, last night was something, for the first time in a long long time now i cried myself to sleep ... and why? its hard to believe that a bunch of rather insignificant morons whom i thought were my frenz reduced me to tears!~ yeah for once there was a boom - realization hit me hard that no, i was definitely not a part of their gang, much as i tried, i'd always been an outsider... that in dire need, they'd not stand up for me... and no, no question of supporting me against anybody! hurts to know, right? especially after you think the world of them go out of the way to help them and be nice... to think they actually thought of me to be so cheap as to completely backstab, and to think that even if i did go against one of them, there'd be no one... none at all on my side... sure, it sucks!